“Staying where you are & being bitter is not an option.” -Jen Sincero
Honestly, I don’t like where I am. I’m content with it because I unable to identify what I feel each day. Once in a while I can identify the emotion if it’s strong enough. I don’t intend to stay where I am for the rest of my life nor do I intend to do so in the next year. I believe that I will move out of where I am since I don’t belong in MA. I mean my mindset belongs in NY & my mindset should match the location & live in the same place. However, I have an idea of how that’s going to happen regardless of what other people think. I’m not going to share it on my blog unless it happens in my life.
Once in a while, I feel bitter because of my current situation. Although, usually I am not a bitter person. It’s that I long for a place that I should be living in order to make my dreams a reality, for them to come to fruition. But, I’ve been wanting to change my life for the better for more than ten years. That’s a damn long time. I just need to get out of my comfort zones for good. I’m aware that I should be taking action instead of talking about it but I feel like there’s something holding me back, a roadblock that I have to leap over & I’m not sure how to get over it. I’ll have to figure it out soon. In the meantime, I’ll just be educating myself by reading & taking dance classes. I have to change my mindset as well. That will take some time.
I don’t intend to be bitter. I agree that it is not an option. I have to be successful because I love expensive sh!t. It’s my taste. It has been quality over quantity for a long time. Just because I’m into fashion, doesn’t mean I’ll have a lot of stuff that I can wear all the time or switch it up & wear different outfits each day. It means that I can express myself all the time-even if that means I’m wearing that same jacket or sunglasses that day as the week before.
My priority is to depart my comfort zones for good as soon as I can. It’s too bland to be living the way I am. I realize that I have to make connections & network with people in order to get what I want & what I need. I need to transfer what I see in my mind to what I want to be living my life on a daily basis so that I’m not always thinking about what my life would be like if I’m successful.
I don’t think it’s a fear of success thing, but it could be a fear of what if all my dreams come true AND it is exactly what I want & what I have dreaming of my whole life. At the same time, I don’t fear it because I want it SO bad that I’m willing to pay for it. Whether that be by monetary means, mentally or emotionally paying for it. I know I will have to pay for it physically by working my ass off as a dancer.
This post is inspired by the book, “You are a Badass at Making Money,” by Jen Sincero